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Time of an Existence

Past, don’t hold me down,

Support my back

Hit me when needed

And pat me to cheer me up


Present, don’t be swift

Pass accordingly

And mend my tattered past

To my hoping future


Future, don’t be cruel

Come quick

But not today

Keep me believing

That tomorrow will yield something

Much, much

Much better


Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained

I won’t say grand things like, “If I give my best, I’ll accomplish everything.” But by trying my best, I give myself a fighting chance to HAVE SOMETHING rather than giving up and attesting to the fact that I was born NOTHING and will end up as NOTHING.

Senses tingling with  sweat as cold as ice and a little bit tachycardic is how I would describe myself right about now.

I finally clicked the much anticipated “Publish” button on Amazon’s Kindle Direct Publishing and am still waiting for their notification that’ll say that my book is ready, live and available on their store. The wait is killing me.

The mixed feelings this experience is giving me is really nauseating. And until this very moment wherein I am writing this blog entry, I’m still not sure if what I did was a good decision but what I am sure of is that this is something I really wanted to do.

Unlike the main character in my book, I am unable to see what lies ahead of me. With that said, there is no other option for me but to charge forward with all my might and hope for the best.

Picking up the pieces after a storm of failures

Fear is a very common emotion. Everyone has their own fears and people who say otherwise are either lying or just haven’t come out of the uterus yet.

There are many things a person may be fearful of. As a matter of fact, things to be feared can be anything under the sun. The most harmless existence something is to someone can be the opposite to another.

This year 2013 hasn’t been very good to me. It’s been a constant failure after another in everything I have done so far.

Sometimes I wonder what life will throw at me next. And it dreads me to think that my next failure would be from something I really love.

These past few weeks, to pick up myself from ruins, I finally mustered enough energy and confidence to try and self-publish my very first book, ebook to be precise. I’m still in the final stage of editing and every mistake I notice is another anxiety building up.

I fear for the things yet to come, the results of a venture where I know many failed. But I will push through with every bit of strength I have and invest even more heart than what I’ve given most things in my life so far.

I fear for the things yet to come and I hate myself for it but what I despise more is to see myself stagnant and stay the way I am now.

This is probably make or break for me but no matter what happens, no matter how much I might break after this, I’ll just make and make myself all over again.

After all my failures so far, I haven’t given up in a single one so why give up now?

Something New


Last Saturday I went to a bookstore and saw these very cheap oil pastels for kids. I’ve always wanted to try drawing with something other than pencil, charcoal and watercolor so I’ve decided to buy them. Luckily they were very cheap. The 12 colors set I bought was only 45 Philippine pesos which is less than an American dollar if you convert it.

The picture above is the result of my first attempt at painting using oil pastels. I’ve initially intended it to be the Aurora Borealis but halfway I realized that the concept was out of my league so I’ve thought of making something else. Having already spent more than an hour, I was hesitant to throw it away and thought it would be nice to finish it and transform it into a rose. Yes, it is a rose! I am aware that it looks like a flower that’s undergoing a major identity crisis. I’ve realized this when my friend said it was beautiful a gumamela flower and another mistook it for a rafflesia

Gumamela Flower (image source: wikipedia.org)

Rafflesia Flower (image source: wikipedia.org)

Regardless of what others might say, I’m really happy with what I’ve done. Honestly, right now that my head is cramped up with jumbled data about things like human anatomy, pathogenesis of diseases and the like, I’m just happy it didn’t turn into something too morbid to post.

The World and The Great Divide


Have you ever opened the television to watch the news but as you sit in your comfortable couch, you silently thought to yourself, “What’s the point?”
What was the point in watching? It will probably be the same old news about how a nation attacks or defeats another or probably how there’s a news about this celebrity that bought a million dollar necklace and how the same news is ironically followed by another news saying that Africans are dying because of dirty water.

In almost all speeches, especially by beauty queens and politicians during elections, it’s almost hard to miss the words “world peace”. What exactly is world peace anyway?

According to Wikipedia.org, World Peace is a state of planetary non-violence by which nations willingly cooperate, either voluntarily or by virtue of a system of governance that prevents warfare wherein there is equality between all races and nations transcending beliefs and religion. And based on what I remember from my highschool world history class, the exact origin of the idea can be considered lost in time since it was already around ever since the era of the upright man began.

If it was already around that long, how come it still hasn’t been realized? You can read every reference in every existing library and still, you won’t find an era that can proudly say that they’ve achieved world peace and equality.

Even though it’s origin can’t be traced, the number one cause why it’s hard to achieve is quite simple. Have you guessed what it is? It is the one thing that binds you with probably almost every person you meet everyday. It’s non other than your “Race”.

It’s very ironic how the one thing that connects you with the stranger you meet in the hallway is the one thing that also separates you from the rest of the world. It is what I would like to call The Great Divide. Races push us to separate ourselves into nations which can then be divided into ethnicities followed by many more smaller groups.

What’s wrong with race you say? Here’s the catch. We are all born within a specific race and it is status quo to improve the standing of one’s race. How do we do that? By overpowering others of course!

In the long run, these competitions between races escalate to wars that produce another factor that will continue to widen the rift between nations — they are the Heroes of war. In my opinion, wars will never end because not only is there greed but also because in every generation, there will always be a hero to look up to who rose to fame by killing and conquering others for the sake of the “greater good”.

Other than races, there are many more things that hinder world peace and separate us from one another; we are divided by 7 continents, 196 countries, thousands of islands and not to mention the diverse religions, ideals, beliefs and many more. That is why philosophers believe that World peace is nothing but a surreal dream. They have come to a conclusion that humans have the innate tendency to separate from one another and aim for individual greatness but on the other hand, science also tells us that we also have an innate craving to disrupt the natural order of things.

Animals have no way of fighting their instincts but we humans do. Let us not be contented by the fact that nature has modeled us to grow apart from one another. I strongly believe that we are more alike than we are different from one another. Together, let us bring down the Great Divide.